holidays

So my sister is back from Iraq. She is royally getting screwed by the system and is not coping well at all. my computer is fracked so whoohoo there. I'm staying put for the holidays to spend it with my new family instead of relatives. I hope everyone has a great holiday and maybe I'll post another blog before the 1st. by bye

layers

LAYER 1: Tell us your…

* Name: Jemmy
* Birthday (month, day): November 3
* Birthplace: Orange, CA
* Current location: Santa Ana, Ca
* Eye color: Blue/green
* Hair color: red/blond/auburn?
* Height: 5′11"
* Righty or lefty: lefty
* Zodiac sign: Scorpio

LAYER 2: What’s…

* Your heritage: Scots, Irish, welsh, Hopi
* The shoes you wore today: Docs
* Your weakness: my son
* Your fears: ask me later
* Your perfect pizza: garlic sauce, chicken, bacon, green onions, lots of cheese, tomatos, or an everything chicago style
* Goals you’d like to achieve: go back to college and get my degree
* Your first waking thoughts: It's a new day
* Your best physical feature: My smile and my eyes
* Your most missed memory: If I don't remember it then maybe it's not missed? I dunno

LAYER 3: Do you…

* Smoke: Not anymore
* Cuss: I'm trying to cut down
* Sing: yes
* Do you think you’ve been in love: I know I have
* Did you go to college: I did, and want to go again
* Liked high school: sometimes
* Want to get/stay married: yes
* Believe in yourself: yes I do
* Think you’re attractive: Yeah
* Think you’re a health freak: nope
* Get along with your parent(s): sometimes
* Like thunderstorms: yes
* Play an instrument: Yes. not great but yes

LAYER 4: In the past month have you…

* Drank alcohol: yep
* Smoked: Nope
* Done a drug: Not unless you count tylenol
* Made out: no
* Gone on a date: No
* Gone to the mall: Yeah
* Eaten an entire box of Oreos: No, but damn near a whole box of pecan sandies
* Eaten sushi: just outside of
* Been on stage: no
* Been dumped: no
* Gone skating: no
* Gone skinny dipping: No but tempting
* Stolen Anything: no

LAYER 5: Have you ever…

* Played a game that required removal of clothing: yes
* Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: nope
* Been caught “doing something”: hehe
* Been called a tease: yes actually
* Gotten beaten up: yeah I guess you could say that
* Shoplifted: nope

LAYER 6:

* Age you did get/hope to be married: 25
* Numbers and names of children (either you have or want): Scott, 2.5 want more but number isn't important
* Describe your dream mate: whoever God leads me to
* How do you want to die: having sex when I'm really really really old
* What did you want to be when you grow up: Archaeologist, or be in the U.S. Navy
* What country would you most like to visit: Scotland

Layer 7

* Name a drug you’ve taken illegally: Pot (once and it sucked)
* Name a person you could trust with your life: God. but human... Gaelina
* Name a favorite CD that you own: all the music I put on my music phone
* Number of piercings: 1 sort of
* Number of tattoos: 2 and more to come
* Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: a few. Not sure exactly how many offhand
* Name a past experience that you regret: none

ramble on 1

I feel I'm slipping
into the muck and oblivion
into the void of vagueness
far from the heart of me
far from where I need to be
I try grasping and gripping
but feel myself stripping
stealing away what I want to protect
and losing all the love and respect
I try to steel myself against the pain
knowing that it will come but hoping that it doesn't
knowing what the answer is but wishing that it wasn't
tearing and quaking
breaking and shaking
losing all strength
and wondering to what length
where will I go and how far
daring to dream upon a star